I used to think I was hot stuff (I typically, at least in my head, use a different word for “stuff”) – my youth, arrogance, and straight-up ignorance fueled my pride, ego, and wiped everyone off the boards before I would give them time and attention.
Something has changed, dramatically, and I’m not sure when it began but I think I like it (thank God!). You see, I woke up this morning, hopped in the shower, and began planning out my day as well as what I was planning on writing and publishing as well as the teams that I have to lead and inspire.
I thought about all the things that I had going on as well as all the things that needed to get done. I realized my list was about 10-12 explicit things that needed answers so that I could continue to move forward, build momentum, and kick serious tail.
The problem was that I didn’t have any of those things answered and I had no idea how to solve them – not even a hint of an idea. I realized that my schedule for the day was covered with nearly 100% ambiguity and I didn’t know jack.
I just hung my head and I realized that most of my job is dealing with exactly that: Not knowing much about anything and managing ambiguity and trying to piece together some sort of coherent vision, strategy, and a plan of execution.
When the heck did it all get twisted? When did this change occur? At one point I thought I had it all together (when I thought I was hot sh*t) and that I had a solution for nearly everything but looking back on the last few months I’ve been operating in shades of gray.
Things are getting done but the amount of times I could say that I knew what was going on is really at an all-time low.
Like I said, I really like it, but this morning was one of “those” mornings when you wake up a bit differently and you see a bit more clearly about what’s really going on. I’m not shocked by reality and I didn’t slip and bump my head – I just had a brief moment of clarity as I shampooed my hair.
There are times when we’ve got everything figured out and when things are humming along like a Formula One race car and then there are times when you realize that your still in the race but the Formula One car has been replaced by your grandmother’s cadi – but you’re still asking the deville to go 220mph.
Or something like that.
Have a great Friday folks. Work through ambiguity and be the hot stuff that you really are – just don’t fool yourself in believing that you’ve got it all figured out; you don’t, and that’s ok. Love it.