Let me be frank with you and let you know plainly that I’m just like you – perhaps more than you think.
I’m challenged by the ups and downs of blogging, the “dry” spells of creativity and then, with a lot of luck, a few moments of brief genius and clarity.
I don’t have it all figured out and I certainly don’t wake up kicking serious booty every single day of every single week of every single year – in fact, there have been years where my level of so-called creativity was ridiculously-low.
The thing is that most of you never knew me then! You just know of me in the now and I oftentimes wish I could adequately share with all of you my complete journey of how I stumbled my way into blogging as a profession and how I luckily turned it into some frankenstein-ish career!
I never had it all figured out and I was never completely sure of how it was all going to play out. All this to say my blogging experience and journey was relatively unremarkable and very much “normal” – in other words, very human.
If I can be even more frank I’d like to share with this community that I suffer from bouts of depression. During my college years I suffered severe clinical depression, even attempted suicide (obviously wasn’t very good at that since I failed, thank God!), and had to be hospitalized and take some time off from school.
I haven’t completely overcome depression and from what I’ve been told, researched, and experienced, I will never really overcome it ever – I can minimize it through a healthy lifestyle and through amazing, challenging, and positive relationships.
But there are days where I wake up and I just sit on the side of my bed and think, “Yup. Today is one of those days…” and no matter what I do I simply can’t shake out of it (I know, I’ve tried everything).
I even recently went through another “down time” (is what I call it) this past weekend where I couldn’t get any motivation or desire to write – yup, I could not even write a single thing. I couldn’t stand looking at my laptop – in fact, I couldn’t even bring myself to type anything at all really!
The point of sharing all of this? It’s to tell you emphatically that I’m just like you, warts and all. I struggle with normal everyday challenges and frustrations just like you. I even have clinical issues, just like you. I have a number of life-long and extremely debilitating medical conditions, perhaps just like you.
I’m human first, a blogger second. And if I can be half-decent at the former than I surely can be ok at the latter. And so can you.
We’re here for each other (and that’s why I’m loving the Community Forums even more – we talk about “human” stuff, not just blog stuff) and we’re going to make it! Just taking it one day at a time.