I feel like I’m managing 2 completely separate lives (or perhaps 3… or 4…): One life in which I’m a husband, father, web nerd… and the other I’m a son… but not the same son I was a few weeks ago.
Or I am, but, I’m beginning to see my “sonship” in a slightly different light.
Having the opportunity to meet my birthmom is beginning to become more of a reality every single day. It’s like that feeling when you know about something but it finally “clicks” and you feel like you really know about it now (or at least know about it a little bit better).
I think it’s happening every single day, that “Aha!” moment.
The problem isn’t that I’m having them, I think it’s refreshing. The real problem is that I’m not having much time to process them. God has an interesting way of just piling things on, doesn’t He?
And not without purpose, I’m sure. It’ll be 20/20 when I get through, it always is. But when you’re in the middle, it never feels good, right?
When it rains, it pours. And when it pours that means I typically get wet, like really wet… like when you feel like your drowing-while-standing type of “wet”.
But I’d almost never have it any other way. It’s during these times where I find Scripture even more satisfying. It’s during these times where it becomes even more of a priority.
Now if only my heater would get fixed…! It’s bad enough to be wet… freezing wet sucks!
would God be considered our Mother too?
um, not in my theology…?
He has the attributes of a father but not of a mother? So are you saying God lacks motherly attributes?
My family is praying for you. We heard about you through ragamuffinsoul. We have a five year old and a two year old adopted from Korea so we are closely following your journey. Your faith is refreshing. Any advice for us as we raise our Korean children?
Thanks for following me in this journey! what are your children's names?
comment field is a bit too small to tell all… but i tell this to a lot of people: don't stop saying "i love you". it really really really works. i've never felt "unloved" by my adoptive parents.
Our son's Korean name was Kim Min Shik, now Camden Eli. Our daughter's name was Shin SaRang, now Rory Katherine SaRang (See them at lifeasalewis.blogspot.com). Thanks for the advice…we never want our kids to feel "unloved."
rock it!
Hmm, have you read the Shack? Our church is talking about it over the next few weeks so I decided to read it in preparation. Interesting because God (the Father) presents himself as a woman. (At least so far, I am only about half way through.) I actually just got to that part this morning so I thought it would be a good comment as I check out this blog post.
It is amazing to me how Scripture reading is so timely. When there is an active discussion or a question on your mind, God has that answer and we just "happen" to find it right at that needed moment. Sheer awesomeness!
Oh, and I am probably limiting God, but I agree with you part of that theology. For me there is a reason why we call God "God the Father."
i have not read that. i'll have to take a look.
well, there are certainly characteristics of god that could be described as "motherly" but the bible apparently says "father"… so, i'll go with that.
If I can remember I will give you a review once I finish reading it and our pastor talks about it.
You and me both brother. Same camp.
cool.